» browsers are like people: each one's different
Dude, my blog looks weird in Firefox... I wonder how does it look like in other browsers??? Or other computers, whatever.
You think it's time for a new layout? I'm getting bored with this one...

So, help me out... What do you like and dont like about this layout? (slow to download, bad colour choices... whatever?) Just so I can improve the next layout.

Thank you.

» life is so fuckin GREAT
I wanna say....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF

There's a reason why my phone number ends with '4985'... Well it stands for: day 4 - month 9 - year 85.
Yeap. Yesterday it was official I was no longer a 'teen'. And officially I started my journey into the hectic life (can it be more hectic than teen years???) of twenty-somethings. Oh yeah... I'm now 20, so it makes me a young woman. Sigh. What a burden that sounds...

....but that's just me being over-dramatic.... ;P

I feel so much loved today. Not only because there are people who care about me. Even ones I never thought they did... I never thought they (actually, I'm talking about one particular person... I hope you're reading this, knowing who you are, and grinning like crazy *lol) know me so much. And that needs so much effort. And that's just plain sweet. And that's f***in made my day :) I just wanna say Thank You. Because I cant stop grinning lol

I also wanna say big thank you to for providing me with my 'vitamins' lol yeah just yesterday I was like 'oh darn I need a new journal' then today she's like 'here, a new journal, I read your mind' lol I filled the first page with a special birthday entry hehehe (you dont mind, do you?). And oh, GARFIELD!!! My favourite cat :)

Dear Etta: Honey, it's still 11:55 hahahaha... oh but I still love you whatsoever... Dear Can2: It's sad we can't drive around together anymore... but I still love you too. Titik. lol

To my 'brother'... where have you been?? I havent heard anything from you for days... I hope you're okay... Hurricane Katrina didn't hit your area, did it???? *worried*

And of course, I wanna say THANK YOU (3642374628342x) to EVERY SINGLE PERSON that remember my birthday. It means the world to me :) I love you all...

To God......... I'm lost for words. You know what I wanna say (well just check your inbox lol) I feel so so so BLESSED. :)

Hmm I'm so in love with today hahahaha... umm? what? WHAT DO YOU MEAN I'M RAMBLING TOO MUCH??? Heck, it's my birthday, I can have the longest post!

K, I'll go back to my watching Fourmula One re-runs... (I still can't believe Kimi didn't get the #1 on my birthday... grrrr I hate the bad luck that keeps following him... but he still ends up #4!!! that's like, AMAZING)

-feel so much blessed,
SiluetKucing ;)

» Do Note Post Here!
New blog!!! But I promise you... it's something different from what I've been done before! Well, my desk got a bit messy, so I decided to tidy it up a bit. Hell, SO MANY NOTEBOOKS AND MEMOS I HAVE THERE!!! Not that I collect them on purpose or whatever... So, I was like, "Hey, why dont use THOSE to BLOG?" Here goes, I proudly present you: DoNotePostHere

» miss me yet?

music: I've Got A Dark Alley And A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth (Summer Song) [Fall Out Boy] -wow, what a title!
mood: sleepy


Man it's been AGES since the last time I post, eh? Have you grown a beard? ...or something. I guess not.
Oh well... on with the story...

I've been listening to: Fall Out Boy.
I'm still amused by their long song titles. Seriously, they have something like this: 'I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me'. Ahahahahahaha how can you not love those guys??

I've been using: Firefox browser.
I find it WAYYYY better than IE. It's not only bcuz of the brilliance of tabbed browsing, but I also having a good time downloading the cool themes and extensions. You should try :) I highly recommend it.
My favourite extension is: StumbleUpon.

I've been trying: Shareaza. Well I was a Limewire user before, but then my firewall killed it, so I was forced to find a new home. Oh man *tears* I miss my Limewire... so much. Shareaza is not bad though. But I guess my firewall is still haunting me... I dunno why, it still blocks even if I've configured the settings etc. I've tried downloading Java, but still my Limewire is dead. Help! Anyone?

Oh yeah, one more thing... I found this cool website: PostSecret.
What is it? 'PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail-in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard.'
If you've seen All American Rejects' new video Dirty Little Secret, those postcards in the video are REAL. It's REAL secrets by REAL people. Cool, huh? The secrets get as interesting as: 'I may smile to older people and I'm thinking "Why are you alive and my parents are not?"'. Check this website out, you'll be amazed.

That's it for today.

» the purpose to getting up every morning...

» WHAT THE????
One of the most controversial Formula One races in history...

Race: Michael's Hollow Victory

"20 cars headed onto the grid but only six started the race as all seven Michelin-shod teams retired at the end of the end of the formation lap.
The reason was safety concerns over the available rubber and despite the many efforts a solution to the problem couldn’t be found."


.... yeah you read it right. Only six (six, yes, SIX!) cars raced yesterday (oh please, what's the FUN???)
....well, the story behind:

"Following Ralf Schumacher's accident on Friday morning, we were advised by Michelin that none of the tyres that were available to the teams could be used unless the vehicle speed in Turn 13 was reduced. Without this Michelin did not consider the tyre to be safe to be used for the race."
Read more: Tyre Trouble: Michelin team's statement

I watched it last night while I was studying Art History for today's test. Nobody knew what was going to happen. Not even the commentators.
I thought they were going to cancle the race completely. But then the team had lined up, so I thought 'oh well they're gonna race whatsoever'. But after one lap, the rest of the cars heading back towards pitstop! I was like, 'WHAT THE????'...
...then I turn off the TV and went to bed.

It was so dissapointing. Schummacher, I dont know, do you still feel like a winner? Tsk tsk tsk... But yeah, I thought it'd be funny if the other 5 got problems and left him race alone for the rest of the lap, so just he could enjoy the view...

PS: I don't blame Michelin though... I just feel sorry for those fans who'd paid about $100(??) just to see 6 cars go sightseeing around the circuit. Poor people...

PSS: Err... Ok 'sightseeing' is probably too harsh since they still had a real tough race anyway... Sorry.

» a day meant for nomat... and I wasted it
You know it's meant to be a 'Nomat'* day when....

1. It's Monday
2. You have difficulty waking up.... again, cuz it's Monday, and you know deep in your heart you should be doing sumthin else than going to school/work
3. You go to school and find the teacher is not available today
4. ...then you end up doing nothing through out the class
5. ...and you wonder like, 1275372562 times, 'WHAT am I DOING here????'
6. ...then you get really really bored
7. suddenly you remember that the next day is a day off
8. and then you remember there's a good movie playing on the cinema... even TWO good movies
9. then it hits you 'KNAPA GUE GA NOMAT AJA??????'
10. you get frustrated


Yeah, happen to me today... A day of a waste sitting in the classroom doing absolutely NOTHING when I could be watching Kingdom of Heaven instead... *sigh*

_____________
* Nomat = nonton hemat (in Indonesia, every Monday there's a discount in all the cinemas) PS: Sorry I typed 'Sunday' instead of 'Monday' lol

» can't help...
... aside from a broken heart I'm going through ...
Posting a picture wouldn't hurt ;P...


Pierre Bouvier of Simple Plan, being incredibly hot under the pouring rain, in the new video 'Untitled (How could this happen to me?)' (right, the longest SP song title, I know...)

Oh well... this could be a nice distraction from thinking about that particular guy I shouldn't be thinking about =P so, really, GO PIERRE!!! =)

» being mellow doesn't heal heartache
"Catch myself/ From despair/ I could drown/ If I stay here/ Keeping busy everyday/ I know I will be OK
Out of reach, so far/ I never had your heart/ Out of reach,/ Couldn't see/ We were never/ Meant to be"

-Gabrielle 'Out Of Reach'

I read it somewhere: 'If you expect it not to hurt, you wouldn't call it FALL in love'.
I wish I could rip my heart out of my chest, wash it with soap till it's clean from the mess you caused, and put it back in....

Papercut

Do you know how it feels?
bright red
only thin slices
but it kills

Do you know how many bandages do I need?
None
I can pretend
But I bleed

Do you know why I laugh?
Distraction is a bliss
And you don't even worth the tears

Do you have any idea?
No, you don't
You don't even know 'me'

I don't know how should I feel
wreakage
or a release
I don't wanna choose

A battle I can't ever win

A papercut
That is bleeding


/30 April 2005, 24:15
*karena papercut, meski kecil dan tipis, tapi perih....

» double personality
You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert
You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved Like most people, you enjoy being social But you also value the time you have alone You have struck a good balance!


Ha! You know, sometimes I think I have two personality in me. Like an alter ego. Balance each other, as strong as each other. This quiz is a proof =P

» hmm...
You Will Die at Age 79
79
You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.


79 years old?
Phew.

» the little girl in me

mood: mellow
music: The Used

Two post for today... Wow. It's been a while since I post more than one per day. But yeah it doesnt hurt to add one more...

Let me end the night with a quick poem. Here goes...

Hey little girl
it's a big world you live in
danger and dragons on every steps
where's your knight?


Hey little girl
you can pretend but you need someone
to heal your troubled heart
and cool the fire in your mind
a bandage over your invisible wounds
but you cant find your knight


Poor little girl
where are you going?
what are you waiting for?
you think your knight is not coming


Come out of your little shell
Defeat the dragons yourself
Find the knight in you


Oh hell I feel so empty inside after he no longer stays there. But yeah now in my heart there's a 'Space For Rent' sign! lol
Ok stop the rambling. Well, sleep tight... =)

» Movie Review: Swordfish
I've just watched Swordfish. Starring Hale Berry, John Travolta, and Hugh Jackman.

The opening scene is brilliant, but soon after it moves to the flashback and continues it fails to keep my interest. I dont know why. The action scenes are amazing, but it didnt leave any impression in me. A kind of movie I'd soon forget.

Anyway I bought the DVD bcuz I was interested in the synopsis. Heck, it said something about hacking, robbing a back, it screamed a whole lot of action to me lol

I also bought Michael Valliant. A movie based on French comic book, about F1 race. I've watched it a while ago on VCD and I kinda like it so I bought the DVD. But I dont realize it's in FRENCH until I get home. And the subtitle sucks. So I dont understand a thing they were talking.
But I've watched it before so I've already known the story anyway.

My sister is addicted to F1 now. I'm thinking about watch it along with her since it looks fun in Michael Valliant =P just curious whether the real race is as fun.

» PaperCut
Today I'm trying to keep my head forward and not look back.

Literally.

I try so hard to keep my eyes away from catching a glimpse of they cuddling up to each other.

Ouch.
Got a papercut on my thumb from putting my A3 workbook into my bag. It's a tiny slice but it hurts. In a vibrating many tiny little pains.

That's how it feels to see them cuddling. But the vibrating pain radiating through my chest instead.

» anyone good with science, explain this to me
Ada apa seh dengan para cowo?

Coba yah yang cewe tunjuk jari yang pernah ketemu cowo yang kadang2 baek banget dan kadang2 cuek minta ampun ato nyebelin abis?

There are guys who for one moment make you feel like you're just an unimportant tiny little bug, smaller than a dot next to this word... and then the next second they turn nice and make you feel like you're the most important thing beside the last night's soccer result.

Are they trying to tell you something by behaving that way? Or is it just an unconsiously thing to do?

I think it's in the genes... Do you think so?

» everyone has their own bright side

mood: creative
music: Simple Plan 'One By One'

I'm smiling. Wide. You know why I'm smiling?
It's because of the NEW LAYOUT!! Yay!! And it's WHITE!! Like what I promised you, eh?
Well though I'd miss the previous Simple Plan layout anyway... cuz I like the guys so much... but this one has more sense of 'space' since it's clean white...

So... what do you think of the new layout? =)

Oh btw the posts aren't missing. I've just stored it in the Archieve area cuz it gets too long. Clicky2 here if you wanna read the previous March-April posts...

K, hope you like the new layout =)